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((Posted 1/13/12 by Lucryta))

*this will be mixed with other books that are kept in a neat pile with Lucky's things. It is not locked so it is a hidden in plain sight sort of thing* I was told writing and putting my thoughts into words on paper would sometimes help my thoughts and keep me centered.. I am not sure this will work but it might be an exercise in patience. My shoulder is a pain in my butt.. it wasnt causing issues until i had it fixed.. hmmmmm.. seemsto me that getting it fixed is the problem.. that isnt fair i suppose.. I am certain that it would become a problem at some point had it not been fixed.. it is just difficult to see that now.. I just hope it will be better by the training mission into Ulduar.. I should have known better then to wait until the last minute to find my gifts for Kiee and Kali.. I am still waiting for the damn gloves to be made for Kiee and I have only seen two pieces from the tailor for Kali's... I will be sure not to wait so damn late next time.. I imagine the three of us will be having our second interviews soon.. I am not sure what to expect as the first was alittle more difficult then I had expected.. not difficult in a way I was used to .. I actully had to use my head and think about what I was saying..I normally let my mouth get the better of me.. let us hope I can keep my head about me and give a good showing.. I really enjoy the folks I have met here and do not wish to let them down.. I have been assigned to the unit under the Golden Guardians squad along with Kiee.. Kali was assigned to the Viper Crew.. Odd that.. I see Kiee and myself as the Vipers and Kali as our Guardian.. we shall see how this all turns out..

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((Posted 2/7/12 by Lucryta))

Shoulder is completely healed.. I am glad that is over.. I hate this holiday... it is supposed to be about love and all that.. to bad it means heartache and loss for me.. Maybe that is what has turned me against lettign myself get close to anyone in that fashion.. I spend most of my free time near the lighthouse in the harbor.. I keep a silent vigil, each ship i see brings a swell to me heart.. only to be dashed.. I know better. They will not be returning. I need to stop letting my heart lead me in this.. it only leads to more pain.. My head knows better.. I went by the old shop.. the old keys I have no longer work.. I wonder if it is because they are so rusty or if the locks have been changed.. I have yet to recive any papers on the sale of the building.. will I even get any notice? Who knows? on to better things.. I have finally given the gifts.. they were well recived.. I am glad they liked them.. it means alot that they are happy.. However i cant help but feel alittle lost when dealing with them.. I have no idea on how to deal with family and the whole situation.. Never really having a family I am slow to figure out what to do when and how to do it..

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((Posted 3/29/12 by Lucryta))

Has it really been so long since I wrote in this thing?.. oh well.. after the meeting I feel I need to put something down to help center my thoughts.. Assassins.. assassination.. what is wrong with this?.. I do not take contracts, I do not kill without a reason.. Just because i am trained in something and I am somewhat good at what i do, does it mean i am a bad person or have something to hide? I feel that a well placed knife done in secret could and has saved many lives.. a cleverly hidden vial emptied into a glass can save a nation from war.. just because I make a profit from my actions does not make me evil, Am I not in the employ of the crown? still.... why cant I shake this feeling? why do i feel I have a knife being aimed for my back? Snitch..who is this woman throwing around secrets? Is she after money? is she after power? What does she stand to gain from telling us about the information she has? I dont belive she sold the information, otherwise she wouldnt have told us so brazenly... She wants something... just to find out what it is.. reguardless bigger fish to find..need more information on these "shadows" that are following us.. I dont feel anyone following me.. However, I did change my habits and my hair.. and my armor.. I am trying to shadow those that have reported being tailed but so far I have yet to see anything.. I will give it a few more days..

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((Posted 11/8/12 by Lucryta))

Has it really been that long since I last put word to paper? reguardless, I feel that I need to put something here incase I am unable to in the future.. These new lands are beautiful and most welcoming.. however I feel a dark lingering shadow on the nape of my neck.. It is always there..I work hard to keep my emotions in check while in the Lands of our new allies, However I feel them right below the surface more times then i can count. On more then one occasion I have been attacked by what the natives have called "sha". They tell me they are the embodiment of our negative emotions.. That might very well be the cause of my repeated encounters with these "sha". I fear that something large is watching and just waiting for a misstep on my part before i am consumed by these shadows as it were.. Speaking of the dark emotions.. I had hoped (although I knew better) to have found some clues as to the fate of my parents in this new land.. However my search has shown nothing .. I knew it was a fools errand but I had to look.. I had more hope when I was searching Vashj'ir.. However that proved just as futile.. I am certain that the lingering doubts and anger does nothing to help my shadow problems.. Kiee and Kali have been busy working to get the house ready for the new baby that is soon to be here.. it seems they are completely preocupied with this new mode of life.. Mayhaps it is time to return to my lone hunter status until they are able to return to the hunt.